i broke up with a beautiful woman because i wasn't ready and it terrified me. i could see myself being with her for the rest of my life. seeing her tears broke my heart and i'll never forget the pain in her eyes. i knew i'd made a terrible mistake.

these days, her affection, intensity and adoration is something i crave, and i can't seem to find it anymore. i had it all, and i threw it away.

i know, oh i know.