i have finally realised what i really, really want to do in my life and its like i have just wiped away all the fog in my head. but i am so so terrified, i'm on the wrong path and i cant just switch. i know that if i dont jump now i will never be able to; but right now it seems impossible. and that, that makes me very upset.
i dont want to live my life like a bird in a cage; observing, always observing.
i shouldnt be here.